FLIMSY
By Ecka
We were ok, aren’t we? We were worth a try, don’t you think? We were happy, right? You love me, don’t you? Why do you have to leave me? Why does it have to be this way? Why does it have to end?
I feel so alone.
Maybe its not the right time, or not the right place… but I’d still like to think we were right for each other. Time was against us, against our relationship, and all we could hope for was the right time. Maybe, we'll be together. Maybe then, I'll give the love back, even just a little. I know I do sound pathetic. But I can’t deny, every passing day it hurts and it hurts even more. Knowing that soon, you’ll be leaving. Soon.
And now, I cherish every moment. I relish it like as if it was the last. That’s why I find it hard to part ways everytime we had to go home. I don’t want to let go of your hand. Cause it feels like it’s going to be the last…
Five years from now, I might see you again. Not as my bf, not as mushy you used to be. Not as yabi, my buddy, the one who always make inis then tells me “cute ng baby ko”. By that time, you’d be holding someone else’s hand. Cuddling, laughing, sharing, how sweet, isn’t it? I couldn’t imagine, where would I be? Holding someone else’s hand as well? Startled with what I saw or probably alone, thinking about you, and what could have been?
I wish to tell you everything. How I felt, how I’ve cried, and how many times I’ve died. But as you said, don’t get so affected with what’s happening. Don’t get so emotional cause only fools do such. How could you easily say that? Were you brave enough to handle things without the stupid me? Or were you tired enough with all these pretensions?!? I am emotionally attached. I am weakened with every single word you say. I am distressed, awfully at my lowest point in life. Wretched from all the hurt, that is happening around me. I am lost without you. I wasn’t just emotional, cause I was carried away by my feelings. That’s not it. Call me a fool, but atleast I wasn’t pretending. This is what I am feeling & this is what I am. A fool. Blinded by sentiments & all the memories I have with me. Yes, unlike you… I am fragile.
I based my emotions not by some silly quotable quotes forwarded by whoever that is. I don’t want to have any regrets on doubting, and stopping myself from loving you. I have loved you for who you are, and what you’re not. I’ve read things I shouldn’t have. I feel miserable with just simply viewing your friendster profile. The shout-outs’, comments, half meant lyrics & all. Or am I just paranoid to think it was all for me? Anyways, I don’t know where all the hindrance came from. Were you scared? Were you mad? There must be a reason… tell me. It was worth a try. I was worth a try, was I not?
###"If the person did everything for you, loved you whole heartedly, don't ever let go of that person, for you will realize one day that this person was willing to love forever."###
We were ok
We were worth a try
We were happy
Call me a fool, but I wasn’t pretending.
I have loved you for who you are, and what you’re not
Posted by: Private | January 25, 2008 09:11 PM